I really do not need to be getting addicted to vanilla iced coffee... especially when I'm trying to give up sugar. -_-

without you
the flowers bloom
the children play
the stars gleam
the poets dream
the eagles fly
without you
the earth turns
the sun burns
but i die
without you...

without you
the breeze warms
the girl smiles
the cloud moves
without you
the tides change
the boys run
the oceans crash
the crowds roar
the days soar
the babies cry
without you
the moon glows
the river flows
but i die
without you

the world revives
colors renew
but i know blue
only blue, lonely blue
without you

without you
the hand gropes
the ear hears
the pulse beats
without you
the eyes gaze
the legs walk
the lungs breathe
the mind churns
the heart yearns
the tears dry
without you

life goes on
but i'm gone
cause i die
without you...

Rob is flying out to the East Coast tonight with his mother, because his grandma (his mom's mom) is really sick, in the hospital, and they don't think she will make it through the night.

This saddens me and I feel so horribly for their family... I hate death. It scares me to think about it. It's not fair that we have to lose people who are so close to us, who are a part of us, who we can't imagine them not being here on this earth...

I cannot imagine what I would do if my Mama-Sam died (that's my mom's mom).

I just hope Rob knows that I am here for him, and that whatever he needs, I will give it... even if that's space to grieve alone. I will understand.

Someone pinch me, cause I must be dreaming!!! I'm going back to NYC-- AGAIN-- for the 3RD time since May!!! I can't believe this, I'M SO F*ING EXCITED!!! I'm gonna burst!!!!

fjlsajflsa;jfbl;ahgaobs;ygnuopabhga;!!!!

NYC is like home to me... it's AMAZING. I can't believe I get to go back AGAIN!! I went with Rob (my incredible man) in May for 4 days, then I went by myself in June for 4 days for an audition, and now I'm going back with Rob again for 5 days! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

This time, I WILL see the Brooklyn Bridge and the Empire State building, among other things that I still haven't gotten to see. There's so much to do in NYC, it takes several trips! :]

*bounces around crazily* WHEEEEEEEE NYC HERE WE COME!!!

Why must I keep hitting this wall... over. And over. And OVER AGAIN.


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